THE ONE

Dear Stranger,
I do not mean to be overly emotional these past couple of days but a lot has happened that has showed me how much I have and what to appreciate. Yes, I am going down the overly dramatized road but do not blame me because I can't seem to help it.

I have met someone. Someone who makes my heart skip, race and pump fast all at the same time with just the sound of his voice. Someone who knows the right things to say and the right time and have me reeling. Someone who..... I can go on and on. I know I sound like a lovesick puppy but I do get that reaction just from being acquainted to him.

We all think we have met THE ONE every time we enter a new relationship. Call it cliché or whatever you would but it does happen. I have met a lot of people, and been loved by a lot more trust me. For whatever reason why I was loved I cannot tell. I have had the sense of being used, because of my social stature or physical looks (trust me, I am not a looker).
Anyway, (I didn't mean to digress) my dude is amazing no kidding! He makes me feel like I am finally where I belong. Don't get me wrong dude and I are not in an exclusive monogamous relationship or anything but he still is mine... At least I hope he is!
It is nice to hear someone say they love you and hear the raw emotion in their voice. To see his text first thing when you wake up and feel like everything is going to be okay and you can go through the day. Hear him say he misses you and automatically smile without even thinking twice. I feel loved. For the first time in a long time ( and by a long time I mean never..ever... Take that as you will ) I can honestly say it is not for my looks or social stature but rather because of my personality...my very own self. And I love him back no bars or nothing holding me back.

Love is a funny feeling. I swore after my last traumatic break up that I was done with relationships and that was it for me for at least a year or more. Who ever knew there was a dude coming along and not just that but also would end up stealing my heart and that of my baybay (that would be Adjoa Clarke in case you didn't know! ). Hurting him, or even upsetting him is not something I would consciously do ever. After finding this kind of happiness I do not think I would want to loose it.

And what is the deal with all these guys popping out of the woodwork just when I have found happiness..and true happiness at that? I do not understand that at all. Gosh, guys confuse me a lot. You never know what they want or when they have good intentions. I like emotions. I tell every dude from the very start..... I only deal with emotions else I will not believe or trust anything I am told. Do they listen? Nope! They never do! I am constantly being lied to and cheated on. Who told them that's what girls like? I am not attracted to bad boys at all! Sorry to burst your bubble boys I just am not!

I have rumbled on and on about this amazing guy! Is he worth it? I will say so. I would never have called myself an easy catch before today. He had me in just a few days and I am not even embarrassed about that fact because he is worth every single minute of my time spent with him. Talking, laughing, just staring at each other on the computer screen (yes, he lives far off), texting, etc. He is worth it all.

Thanks for listening,

MzYayraTay